Saturday, November 7, 2009
Life sucks to the max. Feel like crying so much and I know I will be crying later. Today was purely fine and I don't feel well physically. I don't know what is happening to me. I don't feel like talking to anyone as it will only turn out to be something bad. I shall keep myself away from humans. I really had enough of your cold treatings and I don't wish to have anymore. If I were given a chance, I shall leave you all alone. Life in this period of time is super torturing.
During worship today, I nearly cried, trying hard to hold back my tears. And that feeling is so so so hard to describe. I will remember everything that has happened and of course the cause of everything. Many people are backing me up. Once my bro is back, you're dead. I'm giving you serious warning and please get your shitty self right. You're not someone great. Please lar, view yourself before the mirror before come out okay? I don't have mood to write d. Don't disturb me if possible. I bite!
11/07/2009 03:24:00 PM
Monday, November 2, 2009
I cried again today. Felt somehow useless by all these happenings. Was sad but there's nothing that I can do. I shall leave all to God and pray earnestly everyday. Recently I don't have mood to study. Aiks. I'm so terrible. Time is really near and yet my preparation is on going. Not to forget about my memory that always fails me.
I'm joining the GOH for christmas celebration. Be the ADC which I don't know what it stands for. The job is to escort the VIP for uniform inspection. Anyway its fun and I'm loving it. Hope that I can make up with the BB pace. Haha. Not really in the mood to blog lar. So yeah. I'm out. I love you <3
16 DAYS LEFT!
11/02/2009 12:23:00 AM
Sunday, September 27, 2009
Sorry for my absence recently. Mood hasn't been good. I will be switching back here. It's time to forget about the sadness that comes to me due to some hypocrite. Well, people that are full of jealousy are full of sins as well. How true was that. I totally agree with it now.
Life has been treating me fine nowadays. No complaints and no happiness. It was pure neutral. I'm overcoming myself from the feeling of hatred. God knows why. I'm trying to learn alot also. How to tackle the problem and how to not revenge on people as I always remind myself that they will receive punishment from God since they have no repentence in them.
The feeling of missing people is back with me. It was so long ago since I last have it. This feeling can be so deadly if I am too into it till I don't wanna study. Hope that everything will be okay soon. I'll sacrifice more for the sake of HIM. I do love him alot. There start my care and misses. If can meet him like normal, I would be rather overjoy. I know I'm hallucinating but no hallucination won't make my day happy though.
I miss you like crazy. Hope that my misses can go to you by the winds that ever blow. Baby you mean everything to me. Everything I do is related to you. Baby can you hear me? I need you by my side. I'm not that strong that everyone sees. I will always pray to God =)
9/27/2009 09:38:00 PM
Thursday, September 10, 2009
I'm missing you like crazy! Crying during my sleepless nights and sleep late just to prevent myself from waking up during midnight and think of you. You are the one who will be helping me with my sleepless nights one year plus ago. Time passed so fast. We used to chat till morning that time, crapping about stuffs that are so much more impossible to happen, calling each other nicknames. It's just to cruel to me. Why evil people just tends to destroy everything is good? Don't they want to have happiness too? It's just so selfish to only think about ownself you-know-who. When I'm free, I'll confront you-know-who. For the first time I'll change for you, the one I love so much that what happen to you really affect me deeply.
To you-know-who,
You-know-who better not to mess with me, I don't know what will I say when I got angry. Insult you is for sure but don't make me cause the matter to a place where there's no more turning point. I'm just need a part of him not everything. Don't be so stingy okay? When I scold people, I won't care whether you're older than me or what. I just know what is right what is wrong and thats the basic principle in my life. I won't bear with you. So you better don't talk nonsense before you know anything about me. Listen to the shit and conclude me as those type of girls? How stupid and naive are you! Think before doing anything. What people tell you must be true? You stupid! I too can tell you that you're gonna die tmr. Are you going to believe? Of course you won't. So use your brain properly that is gifted by God. Don't just take it for granted. Do something without thinking is what an idiot will do!
9/10/2009 03:21:00 PM
Thursday, September 3, 2009
Lastly those crazy subjects has gone. But for me, for this instant, all the subjects are hard for me. I lost my mood for studies. God knows why and you too.
I has kept my tears for 10 hours today just that I don't want my eyes to appear to be red and swollen. I still care my image anyway. Got some answer from some unnecessay people. For your info, no one ever dares to scold me like this with caps and as if she has the great authority. What the heck! Who do you think you are? If you don't know, just ask and stop thinking you are so great. I won't be afraid with all your words. I only trust God and myself.
I will not lose that easy. I want some nice nice memory. Whats wrong with loving each other? Just that I respect you, we already cut down alot. Till at night only sms and sometimes talk. Well, don't challenge me. You might have your own ways but I must tell you that I never lose in these ways. Oh yeah, in case you are reading this, welcome to my blog. Try to know me more since you will trust someone more. Aite? Sometimes I wonder, if he says my baby has married with me, and you were to believe? Come on, don't be so naive.
If you find me insulting you, there's always an alternative. Just click at the exit button will do. Or maybe a comment as anonymous? Thats suits people who likes to spy on people. Aite? Specially to the him. Surely the results will deteriorate lar. Keep asking people to spy on own brother. I wonder why got such idiotic brother. I mean bastard. One more thing. Putting down the phone without a bye is very rude. How come someone with so high social standing don't know the basic manners? I'm so ashamed of you.
I'm waiting for more challenge from you. Do mess with me. I'll curse you! Don't believe my curse? Then wait for it to come. My motto is don't ever mess with me or I will bite you back!
9/03/2009 08:50:00 PM
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
Okay. I'm back again. Guess will be here more. Since exam is around the corner. Thats my habit. Just forgive me.
Sometimes I wonder am I really that easier to be bullied? Ppl just don't wanna let go of me. What have I done to you lar. I didnt hurt you neither I kill your whole family. Please let me go. I just want a nice life. First time you spoil my birthday and now you did it near my trial exam? You really wanted to spoil my future that much? You idiotic bastard.
Now I can easily conclude that those who are clever and short and plump are evil in their own ways. Stingy and wicked too. But they must be happy that after all the plans they have plotted, they will still have ample time to study. Right right? Who will not agree with me? Tell me, i mean tell me personally if you have the chance to see me.
Sejarah is killing me. So much more to study and now my speed is much more slower thanks to the idiot. But I'm much stronger compared to last time. Near morning d. I have to sleep d.
Nitez!
8/26/2009 11:52:00 PM
Sunday, August 9, 2009
Time is ticking without me knowing.
OMG. I really very worry now. Studying but still worrying. I know I can make it for SPM by hook or by crook since I will have my sleepless night but what about trial exam? Shoot. I have forgotten about trials.
*smack own forehead*Now I'm actually fighting with time. Too bad I lost to time. The time is passing so freaking fast. At least I did manage to study. I shall thank God. I shall not procrastinate anymore. Bless me people.
In You I grow stronger. Lord bless me through my studies and bless me to have a good memory of what I have studied. Amen.
8/09/2009 12:18:00 PM
