Saturday, September 22, 2007
PMR is coming in just one week?? Oh, what have I been doing these days??Seriously I was not prepared yet.. I'm scared and worried.. But what can I do?? Last friday, Puan Lin asked us abt our preparation.. Unfortunately, most of our answer is
NO..Can u believe it?? So this will really be my last post before my PMR..
I wanted to go for the Christian Leadership Training in Seremban, but I have to go to Singapore.. Arggh, really miss this chance.. Anyway, I will be heading to Kampar for RALT.. I'm looking forward to the activities after PMR.. Anyway, I shall go study now.. Science is calling me..
9/22/2007 08:49:00 PM
Saturday, September 15, 2007
I duno how I feel now..I duno why..I'm no longer the cheerful and the one who laugh despite all difficuties..I seriously hope that everything will change, change to something which is better..Now I duno how to overcome this..I have never learn how to overcome or solve this..No one has ever taught me so..
People around me always let me down..How many times I try to forget that, but they keep on repeating that..I duno whether is my problem or what..I don't like this..Well, u may be asking what they had done to me..I duno how I lost trust on them..Those who I trust the most..They just like to tell eveything about u to everyone..Those things just happen a few minutes ago, the next minute, the next class get to know it already..It's more than a spy..From a friend to a spy..Well, although my case has passed long ago, one of my friend get the same thing from that particular person..She did not that well in the trials and the next minute, almost the school know abt it..Whoever knows her came and comforted her..Do u know how embarrased is her??She even cried after that..Must u spread something people is sad of to everyone??I don't understand why she did this..
I sincerely lost trust on her..She did the same thing to me during the mid-year exam..She spread around abt my result to everyone..Everyone came to me and called me to study harder..I doesn't mean that it is wrong..But she shouldn't make her friend embarrased..
Dring CF, how many times I tried to stand my tears from rolling down..During that time, I feel that only God understand me..I know I should do according to my feelings..But I don't know what she will do..She will come to me and comfort me..I'm sure..But also, in the next minute, the school will know that grace cried during the last CF meeting..I'm sad..
She let me down not only once..She is those kind who thinks that matter is really important..She will try everything to get what she want, what she desire..She will never think of us..In her mouth, she said she doesn't mind..But I know she really want it..Well, I don't mean that she's wrong..But at least she should tell me..If she tell me, maybe I will understand her..What u will tink if your friend just dump u and go with others just to gain popularity??Really hate that feeling..
Sometimes I feel uncomfortable with her..Its just my feeling..Sometimes, I choose to trust some of the friends who is not so close to me..I scared they will do the same thing as she..I think I have lost my trust on friends just because of her..I duno why..I hope that some of my not-that-close friends can come and talk to me..I think I will tell them my problem..Anyway, I'm feeling better now..
9/15/2007 11:16:00 AM
Saturday, September 8, 2007
I'm so happy right now..God has answered my prayer..I love people around me..They give me happiness..Haha..Everyone around me, everyone that I know..In the morning, I went to GB high praise..I had a lot of fun.. Playing games and praising God.. Afternoon, , in tuition, Wai Yee bought me a purple doggie.. That day I was just mention abt it.. Unexpectedly, Wai Yee bought me the doggie.. Thanks Wai Yee.. I love ya very much.. Second, my dad boght me a big tiramisu cake.. Wah, I was so surprised because that day I oso just mention only.. Third, my uncle came back from KL.. He is going to treat us something nice tonight in Muncheong.. So I think we will enjoy.. He book 2 tables some more.. I love today so muchie.. Thanks ya everybody..Going to eat my tiramisu cake..
9/08/2007 05:24:00 PM
I woke up wuite early in the morning..I was preparing for the GB high praise..Actually, nothing much i should prepare..I was messaging Jean in the morning..I had my breakfast but my appetite seemed not so good..I hardly finished my food..More than half of my food was eaten by my dad..So after I finished my breakfast, I went to school..Steph and Jia arrived later and we went to Upper Hall to put our bags..Surprisingly, the F4s were doing their homework..Whoa..I was thinking they so rajin eh??The meeting started with roll call..It continued with ice-breakers..The game is abt blind-fold the girl who was suppose to crawl under the table and guide her..Every member of the group must do..Our skuad/group won..yipee..
The high praise was okay..Debbie led the worship with Anna and Kay Lynn as the back-up singers..Mayjet as the 'beautiful' pianist and Jessica as the 'handsome' guitarist..I think la..No so sure with it..Everyone was annointed by the Holy Spirit..We sang Tell The World, My Best Friend, Free, Unify, Now that You're Near, Amazed, At the Cross..Hope I didn't miss out any song..We prayed for our family, friends, school and our problems..One of them is PMR..Oh, it is less than one month, I think now still got 3 weeks??Scared..I was not confident with myself..I think I should work harder than during trials..Because most of my marks were in the border line..So I prayed for that..
After the high praise, we went to the feild..Jia thought we are going to do drill..But, instead, we had games..The game is something like that..Form urselves in group of three..One representatives will start chasing another and the gril have to go to another group and say 'stick'..the one at the other side have to run so that the catcher will not reach her..The game went on..Later, we had the birds and trees game..During night time, the bird have to fly around, but when day time they have to go back to their trees..While for the trees, during earthquakes, they will go around..Aiya, very hard to describe..
As the sun is getting hotter and hotter, we moved to rain tree and form ourselves into a group of fifteen..We have to act according to the scene they gave us and the other groups will guess..Our was the easiest..Rob a bank..Everyone can guess..The second one was people watching star wars..I am the person who love the movie, while some pretend to sleep and some eating popcorn..Haha..No one can guess it..Dismissal was then..After marking our attendance, we went home..
Time flies really fast..My PMR will come very fast..I really worried abt it..So I think I will reduce my online time..That means I will rarely update my blog in this 3 weeks..unless I need it so much..I think I will spend more time with my books..So, wish me luck..
9/08/2007 01:30:00 PM
Well, I have this friend of mine who is kinda sad right now..Actually, I duno what has happened..I wanted to help her but there is nothing I can do..I'm not a good counsellor..Maybe time will do everything..Time is always the best medicine to everything..But, does that mean we just leave her alone facing the difficulties all by herself??I'll never want that..It's so cruel..Friends should be a person who help the others when they are having hard times..Maybe a simple smile will make her feel warm and let her know there are people who always support and care for her no matter what happen..
I was getting out-of-mood these days because of these happenings..Because of one person's act, everyone is down and moody..Why are people like that??Do they ever think of the others feeling when they did that??Is friendship so easily gained??Why they just can't appreciate??A lot of question marks appeared on my mind..Why everybody is thinking of leaving this school??I'm doubtful..Actually, I've thought of that before..Too many unfair things happened every now and then..I was really disappointed..Maybe is God who wants us to face these challenges in our lives in order to make us strong..I just think that..
So people, think before u do anything..U might ended up hurting others..The worst is u may be losing your friends..I hope that everything is okay in the coming days..
9/08/2007 12:22:00 PM
Thursday, September 6, 2007
My mood was getting better..So yeah, i just hope that things will turn out better..Here some pictures, some quite long ago, just enjoy la..
During Kar Mun's birthday..posing in the KTV Room's washroom..
ME, Wai, Kar Mun and I-May..
Leptos Rocks..The only group with pattest, patter and pat(s)..From L to R : Shu Qi, Jean-Li, ME, Kim, Kai Teng, Sin Yee, Soo Mae and Tracy..Front row, Jessica and Beh..
During CNY, in Jia's house..Shi Yun, Wei Li and ME..
Can u spot us?? Saranghaeyo..
9/06/2007 07:48:00 PM
Tuesday, September 4, 2007
Believe it or not.. It’s up to u.. I duno why my mood was not good recently.. I was easily annoyed by some people which I don’t wanna mention here.. Maybe like ka yee, hormone imbalance.. Or maybe stress is doing something on me?? I have no idea..
Sometimes, some silly thinking appear on my mind.. Is God true?? I know I shouldn’t ask this but sometimes when I feel helpless, there isn’t any helping hands there for me.. I still remember when my friend is down, I said that God is true and He will be with u whenever u need Him.. I really felt helpless right now.. It’s not about school stuff but some of my deep feelings which I think is stored in my heart quite long ago.. For those who duno me that well, I’m not that kind of people who placed everything on my face.. Even when I’m down and sad, I will never show it out.. I know some of them know it but they just wanna let me continue with it.. I think that is correct.. When I’m sad, don’t expect me to tell u what had happened.. Unless u are to lend me your shoulder.. I’m sure u get my meaning..
Actually I got this friend of mine who is kinds close to me, helping me when I’m in difficulties.. But somehow, I felt insecure when I’m with her.. She said my secret out easily.. Is that a reliable friendship?? I’m doubtful.. The thing got worse when I noticed she is that kind of people who will come to u for benefits only.. Anyone should know better than me, I got high hopes on my friends coz I trust them.. What I got at last?? I think I’ve get enough of back-stabbed..
Is that popularity and pose is so important in life?? I’ll always want to know.. Even everything happened in school now is all abt favouritsm and popularity.. How unfair it is?? I really had a hard time in overcoming that unfairness occur in my life.. Why do I have so much to overcome?? I’m feeling kind of upset.. Where is the cheerful Grace??
The girl who always smile and laugh despite all difficulties.. I still can remember clearly that last time I used to be sad for the most one day.. Well, one will change at times without notice.. Just like me.. Another different me.. I’ll never know what will happen and what is it behind the scene.. No one can predict their future.. Even when I’m typing this, tears are rolling down my cheeks.. I may be to exaggerate, but this is what my real feelings..
9/04/2007 08:47:00 PM
Sunday, September 2, 2007
What do we mean to have faith in God?? From the distionary, faith is defined as reliance and trust in a person..Some will say read bible, some say get to know God better.. Lots of ways came out from each and every believer, disciple and non-believer.. Have faith in God works miracle.. I totally agree with this.. During my last camp, I had experienced and realised have faith in God is really good.. Miracle does happen.. By having faith in God, we become stronger and braver.. It means that we can be discourage but we must have faith in God.. F-A-I-T-H means Forsaking All..
And it shall come to pass, that whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved." (Acts 2:21)
God will not abandoned his people.. As everyday we will have a lot of duties to face and to complete, we should commit ourselves to God as how we commit to our responsibilities.. As what mentioned in John 3:16, For God so love the world that he give his one and only Son, that whoever believe in him shall not perish but have eternal life.. This verse is so important.. It shows God's love towards his people.. This also begins the story of Jesus who came into this world and lastly died for our sins.. God is true.. He's not only a God for us to admire, but a God who helps us when we face difficulties and at times can be our best friend..
My Best Friend
Have you heard of the one called Savior?
Have you heard of His perfect love,
Have you heard of the one in heaven,
Have you heard how He gave His son'
Cause I found this love,
I believe in the Son. Show me Your way.
I believe in the One called Savior,
I believe He's the risen One,
I believe I'll live forever,
I believe that my king will come,
Cause I found this love,
I believe in the Son. Show me Your way.
Chorus:
Jesus, you are my best friend,
And you will always be,
And nothing will ever change that,
Jesus, you are my best friend,
And you will always be,
And nothing will ever change that.
Bridge:
Nothing will ever change that,
Nothing will ever change that,
Nothing will ever change that,
Nothing will ever change that.
9/02/2007 09:36:00 PM
Saturday, September 1, 2007
After online in imax, we went to jusco for shopping.. but we didn’t shop much.. In fact we ate sushi.. me and my bro ordered quite a lot.. but we managed to finish it.. when we were abt to leave, I met with shiao and yoong whei.. they were just sitting down.. after dad pay the bill, we went walking around.. we met dad’s friend – old church member who.. I can’t recognize him at all.. but he seems to know well abt me when im young.. haha.. I just can pretend to know him.. I acted as if I really know him.. he was with his daughter and son, like my family.. they were going to watch rush hour 3.. at first they wanted to call me to join them too.. too bad we have to go home.. well, saw sin yee queuing outside McD.. yoke mun with a guy and michelle with her family.. so not bad right?? See so many ppl..
Reached home at abt 5.30.. went to bath and watched series.. Then ate my dinner and later to tuition.. feel no mood to go tuition coz it suppose to be an off day for me.. so I went tuition.. when I reached there, yin yee, shirley and kai xin were talking abt hair cut.. me and pui yi were blur out all the while.. so during the whole lesson, we practically laughed at everything teacher said.. cant blame us lar.. coz it supposed to be a day for us to rest.. had a nice time playing with renee.. and I created a name for her, puan renee aka puan chin.. Time flies very fast.. Soon, the tuition ended.. my dad came and fetched me.. we went to McD to have our supper.. so I had nuggets and apple pie for my supper.. it seems that my family eat a lot a day, huh?? For me, I really need to eat so that my dear gastric won’t attack me so often.. During the last month, my gastric visited me every Friday.. so just bear with me..
9/01/2007 11:08:00 AM
