Saturday, December 20, 2008
Hmm.. Got appendix operation on wednesday night.. Before that, I was quite enjoying at the ward.. Watching tv and all.. The operation was supposed to be on 8 but they pushed me out of my ward at 7.30.. I changed quite fast.. It was really weird.. Taking off everything and wear only a piece of cloth where the hind part is just tying up the ribbon.. I had to follow their instructions.. Send out my last msg and get on the bed.. They was quite a long distance to the operating theatre.. The feeling was scarying and few times I was trying to stop my tears from flowing down.. I don't like to show anyone my tears like usual.. So I was being the real me even at that moment.. I waited outside for quite sometime then they pushed me in where i need to lie down on another bed..
They started to push me in another room.. Okay, not that scarying since there's the office.. I waited there long enough and yeah long and long.. I kept on praying.. Okay, so I saw those nurses changed into those shirts.. Well, then suddenly a nurse came to me and asked me my father's name and asked me to verify his sign.. I waited long long enough and yeah even cried.. I quickly wiped off my tears despite how scared am i.. I acted as if nothing happen.. I prayed so many times and yeah my doctor came in.. He asked me not to be scared and alot more.. Soon, they pushed me into a room.. Okay here I saw those lights and yeah like operating theatre.. I was scared.. Here a doctor talked to me.. And the nurse asked me to turn one side and they untie my 'shirt'.. They told me they will check my heart and another side the doctor inject anaesthetic.. It was so painful and I was crying.. The doctor talked to me too.. I saw something applying to me and yeah I was unconscious..
Few hours later, i woke up, I thought the operation was just gooing to start.. I began to be scared again but see see I saw the sign 'recovery'.. That's what I saw when I first enter the room.. I know i was safe and yeah it was a sigh of relief..I saw dad and mum outside.. I hear what they said but I can't say anything and yeah I closed my eyes.. On my way back, I can see things.. But I'm just too tired to open my eyes widely and all.. So, I officially wake up at 11.30.. Dad and bro were with me.. My legs can't move at all.. Guess what's the first thing I asked for.. I asked for my phone.. I reply once and yeah left my phone on but dad keep it.. I sleep for awhile and yeah thats practically my whole night.. The second day the phone was with me all the time.. I was really happy to see my msg.. So many waiting for me and yeah someone never sleep whole night.. I was touched anyway..
Morning was near and the nurses asked me to wake up and changed my clothes.. I tried my best to sit up despite of all pain.. They changed my clothes.. Then they changed the bedsheet.. Then my dear planned to visit me.. So I asked mum to work since I have nothing.. So as soon as mum saw my dear then she went to work.. He was with me and I felt so nice.. Secure and all.. I never feel so good before after the operation.. He made my day.. Then he went back.. But God did help me.. He went back and stayed with me until 6 smtg.. I was so glad lar.. Leaning on his shoulder really so comfortable and I really love the feeling.. Walked around the building and went back again.. Night was lonely after dad and bro went back.. I watched tv and slept awhile and sms till i slept..
The next day, he came again.. I was so happy.. Walked around with him again.. It was so fun.. I love it.. I never eat my porridge.. It don't taste nice anyway.. Just drank my hot chocolate.. Then one small corn and till lunch.. Porridge again.. This time I eat even more.. Dad came to do the discharge procedure.. I was home after that.. It was a nice pleasure..
Sometimes I wonder why things must be so different.. It can be nice at this moment but not nice at another moment.. The difference maybe just a few minutes.. I'm really scared lar.. I hope things can turn out like I wish.. But I know I can't be that selfish since thats not only my own wish now.. Its our wish.. I prayed to God about us and yeah hopefully there's a better turn out..
12/20/2008 09:22:00 PM
