Sunday, September 27, 2009
Sorry for my absence recently. Mood hasn't been good. I will be switching back here. It's time to forget about the sadness that comes to me due to some hypocrite. Well, people that are full of jealousy are full of sins as well. How true was that. I totally agree with it now.
Life has been treating me fine nowadays. No complaints and no happiness. It was pure neutral. I'm overcoming myself from the feeling of hatred. God knows why. I'm trying to learn alot also. How to tackle the problem and how to not revenge on people as I always remind myself that they will receive punishment from God since they have no repentence in them.
The feeling of missing people is back with me. It was so long ago since I last have it. This feeling can be so deadly if I am too into it till I don't wanna study. Hope that everything will be okay soon. I'll sacrifice more for the sake of HIM. I do love him alot. There start my care and misses. If can meet him like normal, I would be rather overjoy. I know I'm hallucinating but no hallucination won't make my day happy though.
I miss you like crazy. Hope that my misses can go to you by the winds that ever blow. Baby you mean everything to me. Everything I do is related to you. Baby can you hear me? I need you by my side. I'm not that strong that everyone sees. I will always pray to God =)
9/27/2009 09:38:00 PM
Thursday, September 10, 2009
I'm missing you like crazy! Crying during my sleepless nights and sleep late just to prevent myself from waking up during midnight and think of you. You are the one who will be helping me with my sleepless nights one year plus ago. Time passed so fast. We used to chat till morning that time, crapping about stuffs that are so much more impossible to happen, calling each other nicknames. It's just to cruel to me. Why evil people just tends to destroy everything is good? Don't they want to have happiness too? It's just so selfish to only think about ownself you-know-who. When I'm free, I'll confront you-know-who. For the first time I'll change for you, the one I love so much that what happen to you really affect me deeply.
To you-know-who,
You-know-who better not to mess with me, I don't know what will I say when I got angry. Insult you is for sure but don't make me cause the matter to a place where there's no more turning point. I'm just need a part of him not everything. Don't be so stingy okay? When I scold people, I won't care whether you're older than me or what. I just know what is right what is wrong and thats the basic principle in my life. I won't bear with you. So you better don't talk nonsense before you know anything about me. Listen to the shit and conclude me as those type of girls? How stupid and naive are you! Think before doing anything. What people tell you must be true? You stupid! I too can tell you that you're gonna die tmr. Are you going to believe? Of course you won't. So use your brain properly that is gifted by God. Don't just take it for granted. Do something without thinking is what an idiot will do!
9/10/2009 03:21:00 PM
Thursday, September 3, 2009
Lastly those crazy subjects has gone. But for me, for this instant, all the subjects are hard for me. I lost my mood for studies. God knows why and you too.
I has kept my tears for 10 hours today just that I don't want my eyes to appear to be red and swollen. I still care my image anyway. Got some answer from some unnecessay people. For your info, no one ever dares to scold me like this with caps and as if she has the great authority. What the heck! Who do you think you are? If you don't know, just ask and stop thinking you are so great. I won't be afraid with all your words. I only trust God and myself.
I will not lose that easy. I want some nice nice memory. Whats wrong with loving each other? Just that I respect you, we already cut down alot. Till at night only sms and sometimes talk. Well, don't challenge me. You might have your own ways but I must tell you that I never lose in these ways. Oh yeah, in case you are reading this, welcome to my blog. Try to know me more since you will trust someone more. Aite? Sometimes I wonder, if he says my baby has married with me, and you were to believe? Come on, don't be so naive.
If you find me insulting you, there's always an alternative. Just click at the exit button will do. Or maybe a comment as anonymous? Thats suits people who likes to spy on people. Aite? Specially to the him. Surely the results will deteriorate lar. Keep asking people to spy on own brother. I wonder why got such idiotic brother. I mean bastard. One more thing. Putting down the phone without a bye is very rude. How come someone with so high social standing don't know the basic manners? I'm so ashamed of you.
I'm waiting for more challenge from you. Do mess with me. I'll curse you! Don't believe my curse? Then wait for it to come. My motto is don't ever mess with me or I will bite you back!
9/03/2009 08:50:00 PM
