Saturday, September 15, 2007
I duno how I feel now..I duno why..I'm no longer the cheerful and the one who laugh despite all difficuties..I seriously hope that everything will change, change to something which is better..Now I duno how to overcome this..I have never learn how to overcome or solve this..No one has ever taught me so..
People around me always let me down..How many times I try to forget that, but they keep on repeating that..I duno whether is my problem or what..I don't like this..Well, u may be asking what they had done to me..I duno how I lost trust on them..Those who I trust the most..They just like to tell eveything about u to everyone..Those things just happen a few minutes ago, the next minute, the next class get to know it already..It's more than a spy..From a friend to a spy..Well, although my case has passed long ago, one of my friend get the same thing from that particular person..She did not that well in the trials and the next minute, almost the school know abt it..Whoever knows her came and comforted her..Do u know how embarrased is her??She even cried after that..Must u spread something people is sad of to everyone??I don't understand why she did this..
I sincerely lost trust on her..She did the same thing to me during the mid-year exam..She spread around abt my result to everyone..Everyone came to me and called me to study harder..I doesn't mean that it is wrong..But she shouldn't make her friend embarrased..
Dring CF, how many times I tried to stand my tears from rolling down..During that time, I feel that only God understand me..I know I should do according to my feelings..But I don't know what she will do..She will come to me and comfort me..I'm sure..But also, in the next minute, the school will know that grace cried during the last CF meeting..I'm sad..
She let me down not only once..She is those kind who thinks that matter is really important..She will try everything to get what she want, what she desire..She will never think of us..In her mouth, she said she doesn't mind..But I know she really want it..Well, I don't mean that she's wrong..But at least she should tell me..If she tell me, maybe I will understand her..What u will tink if your friend just dump u and go with others just to gain popularity??Really hate that feeling..
Sometimes I feel uncomfortable with her..Its just my feeling..Sometimes, I choose to trust some of the friends who is not so close to me..I scared they will do the same thing as she..I think I have lost my trust on friends just because of her..I duno why..I hope that some of my not-that-close friends can come and talk to me..I think I will tell them my problem..Anyway, I'm feeling better now..
9/15/2007 11:16:00 AM
