Tuesday, September 4, 2007
Believe it or not.. It’s up to u.. I duno why my mood was not good recently.. I was easily annoyed by some people which I don’t wanna mention here.. Maybe like ka yee, hormone imbalance.. Or maybe stress is doing something on me?? I have no idea..
Sometimes, some silly thinking appear on my mind.. Is God true?? I know I shouldn’t ask this but sometimes when I feel helpless, there isn’t any helping hands there for me.. I still remember when my friend is down, I said that God is true and He will be with u whenever u need Him.. I really felt helpless right now.. It’s not about school stuff but some of my deep feelings which I think is stored in my heart quite long ago.. For those who duno me that well, I’m not that kind of people who placed everything on my face.. Even when I’m down and sad, I will never show it out.. I know some of them know it but they just wanna let me continue with it.. I think that is correct.. When I’m sad, don’t expect me to tell u what had happened.. Unless u are to lend me your shoulder.. I’m sure u get my meaning..
Actually I got this friend of mine who is kinds close to me, helping me when I’m in difficulties.. But somehow, I felt insecure when I’m with her.. She said my secret out easily.. Is that a reliable friendship?? I’m doubtful.. The thing got worse when I noticed she is that kind of people who will come to u for benefits only.. Anyone should know better than me, I got high hopes on my friends coz I trust them.. What I got at last?? I think I’ve get enough of back-stabbed..
Is that popularity and pose is so important in life?? I’ll always want to know.. Even everything happened in school now is all abt favouritsm and popularity.. How unfair it is?? I really had a hard time in overcoming that unfairness occur in my life.. Why do I have so much to overcome?? I’m feeling kind of upset.. Where is the cheerful Grace??
The girl who always smile and laugh despite all difficulties.. I still can remember clearly that last time I used to be sad for the most one day.. Well, one will change at times without notice.. Just like me.. Another different me.. I’ll never know what will happen and what is it behind the scene.. No one can predict their future.. Even when I’m typing this, tears are rolling down my cheeks.. I may be to exaggerate, but this is what my real feelings..
9/04/2007 08:47:00 PM
